Things are going well - the new medication seems to be making a difference. I don't feel a need to dwell on that question today.
Instead, I'm focused on the idea of story. I began this blog as an exercise to develop my writing skills and organize my thoughts about what to write.
I'm still trying to figure out how and why I would go beyond writing this blog. What would I write about? Do I tell my personal story? I'm actually very tired of telling my mental illness/mental health story. I've lost count of the number of times that I've shared my story, and I've told it in many different ways to address a variety of purposes.
Is there more to tell? Am I called to continue to tell the story? Do I have other stories to tell? Is there a reason to tell these stories that goes beyond feeding a narcissistic obsession?
I am having difficulty remaining on a linear thought trail. I'm bouncing in many directions today. While I question the value of retelling my story, other thoughts and memories pop up.
- Telling my story was cathartic.
- Telling the story was part of my healing and growing.
- The ever changing story illuminated my progress and new perspectives based on my increased enlightenment and understanding.
- People told me that my story helped them understand what their friend or family member was going through and what they needed.
- Others told me that they realized they were not alone in their experience.
- Some people were encouraged to come out of the closet and share their own stories.
- I heard people say that my story gave them hope for themselves and/or someone close to them.
- A few found ideas for new strategies for their own healing.
- Discouraged and jaded care-providers found themselves re-energized; their passion for helping reignited by a story of hope.
- A young man with schizophrenia told me that my story was the inspiration for his own healing and successful entry into working in the mental health field.
I seem to have just outlined the argument for continuing to tell my story.
Am I up to the task?
Our stories matter...Your stories matter… For you never know
how much of a difference they make and to whom.
~ Caroline Joy Adams
Earlier this month (November 7) I posted about telling my story as part of our pastor's God in the Movies message on A Beautiful Mind. If you're interested the link below will take you to a Quicktime video of that message.